May has always been my month. It's when I was born, it's when the weather is my favourite, it's when nature looks fresh and colourful and pretty. I remember that May 2024 was a very bad month, but it was still my month and despite it not treating me well, I still owned it. There's magic in May for me.

I don't know what this year's May will hold for me. I want to participate in MerMay and paint a mermaid/-man/-creature. I want to write some stuff and maybe post another fanfiction. I have travel plans for my birthday and I will probably pet some cats then. In truth, I have a good feeling about this May.

However, I also like to take the beginning of May as a good point to look back. 2026 so far has been...rough. I've had really good days and really bad days. I struggle(d) with depression and letting go and the aftermath of what I can only describe as coming out of an addiciton. There's been a lot of collateral damage to my healing and I regret that. But I also did a lot of that, the healing, and I learned so much about myself and my life. There is a lot of gratitude to be held for that.

Now, at the beginning of my fabvourite Month of the year, I find myself stuck - at my job, at home (literally), with my hobbies. I want to be more, do more, live and experience and take life by the horns or whatever they say. I guess I'm a little scared. Last year made me scared. Time to remedy that. I am determined to make this a good May. A worthy month to hold my birthday and all of my favourite things in life.

I hope you have a great May, too! Remember to live life for you.
Remember that you have free will.